It's Elementary My Dear Watson.

I was reading through some blogs this morning, and was stricken with an idea. I had a baby almost nine months ago, and you would think that would be the cause of a daily blog with new things to learn every day. Still, I find it hard to find time to write sometimes, and when I do, it isn't really about baby stuff. So I started to think about why that is. It's not because Stinkyface isn't interesting. It's not because she's not funny or she's boring. I think it's mostly because she makes me so happy. And I enjoy my time with her because of that, therefore, I spend my time playing with her every second she's awake. I don't dwell on barely anything that happens during my time with her because, in truth, that is the only time I live in the now. I'm focused and not distracted. My feelings are concrete and settled in my body, and I'm not sparatic or enthralled in thought. That's why when she's asleep everything else floods my mind and the work begins.

I start to think about what I have to do today, why I have to do it, what will happen in the long run if I don't do it, and why somebody else isn't doing it instead. I become a passionate employee of society and a thoughtful slueth to my surroundings. I take in everything around me and sometimes overanalyze things that aren't even mine to analyze in the first place. This tends to lead into anxiety and over-stimulation which then turns into an irritated blog. So why is it so easy to write when I'm pissed or confused, but it's so easy to forget to write about the happy times.

I think this is just another example of how sticky the negatives of life are. Kids can go all the way through school and never remember all the compliments, awards, A's and B's they got, and when they're a junior in high school, be completely depressed because the one dis the school bully blurted out, or the pimple they got right before prom strangles their heart. Needless to say, sometimes the most basic things can be the most difficult to grasp and execute. So here's my goal: for one week I will take it slow and focus on the positives. Maybe by this time next week, my life will have made a turn for the better. Challenge yourself and hop on board with me. Then, let me know how it changed your life.